Why I Live This Way

You know I’ve done some things I’m not so proud of lately. I have felt like I have been crushed, broken, lost, and confused in so many ways. I looked for answers in all the wrong places many times, but when I saw this video and it just opened my eyes once again to how oblivious I am to life. I don’t know true pain after all. God loves everyone so much, more than anything, and yet people still choose to reject him. How does it make us feel when we have one person who doesn’t feel the same way towards us? I, nor many others, have been as brutally beaten and tortured like Jesus was that day at the cross. In fact I feel selfish for even complaining about the problems in my life after I watched that video. He did all of that for me, and everyone else, and what are the thanks that most people give Him? Sometimes I am a coward when I think about death; being shot, murdered, or even dying in my sleep. It draws me to the question of how many people would do that for someone who they love, much less those who don’t even acknowledge them? Even those who sit and insult, provoke, and mock God are loved by Him. Each lash and fall he took was for their sins. Every sin I sin, you sin, or anyone else does is one of those wounds. Is the amount of happiness we receive from our sins worth what we see happening to him in the video? He died so that our sins could be washed away from us, so that we may have eternal life in heaven if we believe in Him. It amazes me how the devil can fool so many into believing that all the wrong things are best for us. How he can deceive people into thinking there is no God, God won't mind, and etc. I just hope yall think about your life, your actions, your words, and how you live after watching the video. God is the perfect sign of love, look what he did for us! Open your eyes and hearts to him, because now you have seen a glimpse of what happened to him.


"For God so loved the world that he gave his one and only Son, that whoever believes in him shall not perish but have eternal life."
-John 3:16

"For Christ's love compels us, because we are convinced that one died for all, and therefore all died. And he died for all, that those who live should no longer live for themselves but for him who died for them and was raised again."
-2 Corinthians 5:14-15

Think Before You Act

There has been numerous times in my life where I have been hurt by someone's words, their actions, or someone I care about doing something hurtful to themself. My heart has been ripped up in many ways, just like everyone else's. Whenever we do something we shouldn't be doing, something againest God's will it ends up hurting more than just God and ourself. Have you ever considered that fact that your parents, the people who love you most, want the best for you and would be hurt by what you do behind their backs? When you become a parent and look into your child's eyes for the first time you will want to keep them safe, protected, and live a long and happy life. You don't want to see them smoking, having sex, drunk, or becoming a nobody in life. When you act before you consider the situation, the consequences, the feelings afterwards, and who all it will effect you will always end up hurting someone. I see people who constantly keep messing up, and each and every time they do they probably hurt more on the inside. Bad things happen to people, we don't always understand why, but we have two choices. We can dwell on the past and do things to try to help "solve" the problem or make it go away like drugs, alcohol, sex, or etc. The other option is to learn from the situation. Lift yourself up out of it to be the best you can be.. the person you know you are capable of becoming. Don't live a lie and believe that the other options will help you. Though it can be very difficult, come back to God and those who follow Him. You can always make it through the pain and the regret, but you can't do it alone. There is always beauty from pain if you put your faith in God. God is the only one who will never walk out on your or forsake you. Our hearts may be broken from guys/girls, parents, rape, abuse, friends, or etc. Whatever it may be, God can heal a broken heart, but he has to have all the pieces.

If anyone ever needs advice, help, someone to talk to, yall know I'm here. It's okay if I don't know you well or if what you have to say may seem terrible. I would really like to be there and help others. I promise to not judge or criticize you, and to be the best help or friend I can be.


Be strong and courageous. Do not be afraid or terrified because of them, for the LORD your God goes with you; he will never leave you nor forsake you."
Deuteronomy 31:6

Fight the good fight of the faith. Take hold of the eternal life to which you were called.
1 Timothy 6:12

"Come now and let us reason together," says the Lord,
"Though your sins are like scarlet, they shall be as white as snow."
Isaiah 1:18

Amazing Grace

When everything is ripped away, when you fall, when you succeed, or when you rejoice who is there to share all of it with you? Who are the ones who have to turn to with trust, love, faith, and honesty?

When were lost, confused, or depressed often times we don't know what or who to turn to. We feel lost inside our feelings, our emotions, our hearts. Part of living is giving your hearts to others and allowing them be big parts of your life. Whether it's a friendship, a boyfriend/girlfriend, or a spouse we choose to love them by giving them our time and friendships. Sometimes certain people come in your life for a certain reason, and sometimes they leave. Whatever the situation is, consider it a privelage and an opportunity. Sometimes we must hurt, cry, and be angry to see the light at the end of the tunnel. By going through hard times we grow stronger, we have the opportunity to become more wise with situations. However, when your going through a tough time don't be ashamed or afraid to let someone know how you feel. To let those close to you understand what your going through. When you don't open up to others it can feel like your ignoring or neglecting them... when you really need someone to help you through your tough times. Make sure those who you spend your time with, the ones you put your faith in will be there for you no matter what... and never forget that God will always be the one and only person to always and 100% be there for you, that can help you and heal your heart. You don't have to be blind from God's grace and love when your going through a hard time... you are always capable of seeing, it's just a matter of wanting to and trusting in Him.

Amazing Grace, how sweet the sound,
That saved a wretch like me.
I once was lost but now am found,
Was blind, but now I see.

The Little Things

For this week I just want to talk about a small, but helpful topic. I believe that people don't compliment, encourage, and support those around them enough. If you came to school and somebody different told you a nice thing, or complimented you everyday... wouldn't that change your outlook on the day? Everyone likes to be called beautiful, nice, sweet, smart, and etc. If someone looks down or sad ask them what is wrong and try to be there for them as best as you can. Be the change and the influence that people need. When you begin to compliment and encourage others they might do the same for others as well. Make kindness and love an epedemic. God wants us to be there for others, and to live a life as Christ did. To be compassionate, caring, forgiving, and loving.

As Valentine's approaches.. show others you care by giving them a compliment, encouraging, or being there for them. You have the opportunity and provelage to change someone's day.. so get out there and do it!

Answered Prayer

This past weekend I went on the PALS conference. As we were on our way home we stopped for dinner. I was with a small group at a sonic, and across the street was an old homeless person. I asked the people around the table if I should buy him a meal and take it to him, but they insisted I didn't. I didn't excatly agree with their decision, because I knew he probably needed help and was hungry, but I listened to them. Afterwards I said a prayer to myself asking God to help him to come to Him for help. Only about three minutes later a group of young adults approached the hobo with boxes of pizza and sat down in the grassy field next to him. They circled up, held hands, and began to pray. We all looked at the group of people as one person next to me said, "Like prayer would help him." Little did that person know that prayer does help, that God listens to prayers, and he answers them in his own way. Though I didn't get the opportunity to give the man food, I was able to pray for him, and God most definately heard that prayer of mine.

Don't ever lose faith, and especially not with prayer. God answers prayers in his own way, and in his own time. For that homeless man, I pray that with that group of people that had dinner and prayer with him, that he can come to God and realize that he does have hope. He is equal with everyone else, whether he is homeless or of his past, he is still a child of God.