iLove

Perhaps it’s too many romantic movies or songs I’ve listened to, but I once again want to write about love. Many posts ago I wrote about purity in love, but now I want to write about the feeling and actions that come along with it; or so I believe. God designed each of us for a purpose, and the majority of people will find someone who means the world to them. They give their heart away in hopes of being with that person forever, sharing life experiences, and never losing faith in their love. To me the heart is one of the most precious attributes God gave humans. God, the ultimate source of love, allows us to love as he loves us. Now we can never come close to the love he has for us, but we can always learn what love is through Him. If we know God we know how to love, but it’s all a choice. God chose to send his son for our sins and to open heaven for us even though we aren’t righteous or worthy of his blessings. Though we continuously mess up in life he never forsakes or leaves us, and that’s what love is. It’s not all about passion, feelings on top of clouds, or being cute and cuddly. It’s a sacrifice, a feeling where you will do anything for the person. You don’t see the person for their flaws or mistakes but love them for who they are. Sure they can make you so angry that you want to strangle them, but at the end of every night they are the last person you think of and you wouldn’t want to spend a day without knowing they are yours and you are theirs. You willingly want to show your appreciation or love by doing things for them without them asking, and not seeking anything in return. Love is not a contest, not a game to see who does the most work or who puts the most into it. It’s not about winning over a person or trying to look your best to let the person notice you or want you. It’s not filled with jealousy, envy, or not trusting. It’s when you see the person as beautiful even if they’re looking their worst. Where your heart doesn’t look on the outward appearance, infact sight has no effect on your feelings. When your heart and mind speaks louder than the eyes and physical touch. The money, the looks, the sex, all of that can be temporary happiness; it’s all having fun. Having fun and being in love are two different things. You also want to protect and not bring a person into anything harmful or to change them for the worst. Next time you think you have love at first sight be sure to take a second look, because it might save you a lifetime of pain and regret. One thing I’ve learned is a person may love you, not the way you want, but with everything they have to give. They may not have the money for nice gifts, dinners, or diamonds but that’s a materialistic outlook on love in this world today. Sometimes just looking into the persons eyes can tell you the amount of love they have for you, how far theyd go for you, or how long they want to be with you. The eye can see into the heart. I forget sometimes it’s all the little things that make up the big picture, because without the small things there would never be anything. In love you never give up, despite the hard times. You never lose hope, faith, trust, or dignity. If you find someone who makes you feel that way, or do the things you do don’t mess it up. Whatever you do don’t let that person slip away or go a day without telling them excatly how you feel towards them. Love is a precious gift from God not intended to be mistreated or underestimated, but when you do find it cherish it.

Ending of a Beginning

Today is my last day of high school. I have learned a lot these past four years, some good and some bad. I met a variety of new people, some I'll miss and some I wont as much. I have grown spiritually, fallen, been discouraged, been inspired, and had people along the way guide me without them even knowing. A couple named Chad & Julie who were my youth leaders helped me to become who I am, giving me advice and the word of God. I came to look up to them as Christians, a couple, and people overall. When I was involved in activities or thoughts I shouldn't have been and I saw them or thought about them it made myself feel guilty because they are the example that people need. I knew they were living a life pleasing to God and it truly shows through them, their work, and their words.

Another person I met this year was my teacher who assigned the blog-writing assignments. He was a great example of a teacher, husband, and overall person as well. One thing that I recall was last December he let me borrow a CD of a christian rapper named "Lacrae" and told me to listen to a song called "identity". I listed to that song every day for about a month and a half to remember that my identity wasn't in my ex-boyfriend, material things, my family, but in God. It helped me pull through a tough time in my life and hang on to the faith I had. Another thing is as an educator he did a fantastic job teaching. He made assignments interesting, letting the class get involved and mixing it up with videos and music. He allowed me to share my faith through my blog, what I said aloud in class, and through create debate. He is definitely a one in a kind person that will go far in life, inspire, and change lives.

Now it's time for me to close this chapter and move on to college and my early adulthood. I know I can succeed and I plan to work my hardest at whatever I do. I want to take life as it comes, but remember that whatever comes my way is a blessing and I should cherish it because the Lord planned for it. I pray for everyone that their futures will be blessed, safe, and that they will remember God and put him in their careers, families, and lives.





How do I gauge success / Why do I say I'm blessed / Huh / Is it the car that I drive or the place that I rest or the way that I dress, now / Is the cause of my pride, the stage and the set or my face in the press, now/Cause the applause it dies / When the praise is less if my face is depressed, then / It's cause my value and worth is in the volume of the work I produce in the booth / It's a prize and a curse if defined by the perks when the truth is through / Man I'm goin' feel like I don't want to live no more / Cause they don't like me like they did in 04 / So, I swallow my pride empowered by God, I'm complete in Him/He's got peace / God's priest / I'm in / In His presence weak-His strength / Meet His kin / We His brethren / Read this list / Me forgiven / He's dismissed guilt and my sin and I find my worth cause I'm Jesus' friend

(LeCrae)
Got her hair done, toes and nails / is that Her? well it's hard to tell / cause she's caked up in so much make up / it's like she's tryna make up for what she ain't but / she's a saint / but so confused/ cause she's been rejected by all these dudes / that tell her on a scale of 10 she's a two / but that ain't true if she only knew / In Christ she is loved she secure and accepted/ She'll never be rejected by God who's elected her / Her beauty is her Godliness/ and she ain't gotta try to flaunt it cause it's obvious / Identity is found in the God we trust / Any other identity will self destruct

(Chorus)
I'm not the shoes I wear. I'm not the clothes I buy
I'm am not the house I live in / I'm not the car I drive
I'm not the job I work / You can't define my worth/
By nothing on God's green earth, my identity is found in Christ